I AM TIRED OF MYSELF

It does not matter how much I rest, 

Often it feels like I am always feeling bad, 

I am always feeling anxious somehow,

I am always in need to lay down,

Like I am not having enough sleep, 

I don't have much energy in general,

I get tired easily,

I feel guilty when I depend too much on others, 

I feel like a weight,

I don't like how I think,

I don't like how I look, eventho I look good even gorgeous, 

But I how I feel does not correlate with that reality, 

I am tired

of myself

overall

I feel like shit today

I am more of a shot than a person

I'm beyond uncomfortable

I don't like how I feel, I don't like how I look, 

I am late to work and still at the bus

I am anxious, I've my period and is uncomfortable

I wanna puke I wanna cry 

I might be a bit disregulated 

I FUcked up

 I really need to be honest with myself 

and other around me 

I fuecked up and this does not have just a solution but rather work if I want to make it right

Ijustkindawannadieforawhilenowbutthathasnothingtodowiththisfuckedupthingidid

I am sorry, please hate me