Some things hurts more than the other will ever know

Some words

Some actions

Abd I know

I have hurt them too

More than I ever know

When I can't deal with something

When I feel worthless

When I feel like is better if I am not there

I scape

To whatever place is near where

I'm not there

 I've been crying non stop for the last two days

yesterday at work I had to have like 8 breaks to the bathroom to cry }

I can't do nothing without burst into tears

my life is so heavy on my shoulders that is affecting the ones I love, 

And I try not to worry them or treating them in a bad way but I'm obviously failing 

I wonder a lot if I'd better dead but there's always someone telling me not to, as if my life was worth something 

I've been trying for years for this sense of depression and intrusive thoughts to leave me alone,

I've failed in that too 

speccially the anxiety, lately feels like my heart is gonna explode at any given moment, 

I cannot keep on this high level of anxiety, is killing me 

I don't like my life

I don't like being myself 

I hate me and how I hurt and worry everyone around me 

why the fuck could i not be normal 

Wondering if i really should keep anyone by my side if all i do is hurt

Being is love is awesome

Is heart filling

But when is over

The withdraw is so horrendous that

Makes me wonder if I'd really like to fell in love again 

I need to do a lot of stuff but I don't want to get off of my bed

I'm more weight than being

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