It was about Fernando
I dreamed that i was meeting him for the first time again
He still was dating Veronica
And it was really awful
You see
There are wounds that heals really slowly, or never heal at all
Has been almost or maybe more than 3 years since we broke up
And i still have nightmares about it
It still hurts someway
And I'm emotionally unavailable since we broke up, i haven't really be able to "fix myself" or to really trust anyone else again
Is kinda pathetic
Makes me sad
I really don't need more sadness rn but
Idk i can't control my dreams
I'll try not to think about it fot the rest fot the day
Is 5.30am after all
