I don't understand

I've been eating well

I've been sleeping well

I've been taking care of my relationships

And I still wish

I wasn't here

I still want to disappear 

I even find some comfort on the idea of disappear

I bet they'd talk about me like

She always were like that 

Depressed and sad 

Or a more oblivious one

She always was happy and cheerful huh

I wish i could tell this to someone

But lately I can't find comfort in anyone

Even the people I think might help

End up making me feel worse

And all I still want, 

Is disappear