A "career" change

 I now understand why I hold so often to see what some old friends as I like to call them are up to, 

Like Danna, that is now famous and a influencer youtuber with all her opinions on movies, 

Or Anabella, singing her best on underground like events her punk goth music,

And many others,

They surely followed the path of making a living of their art and creations, 

As I wish I had, 

I am very certain that I need to make a change in my life if I ever want to feel satisfied with myself , to really try go down that path and look into laboral "happines", as, I do not dream or crave labor, but in this trying times is something completely unavoidable, 

As is my right now that many women forged this path for me to be able to even chose what job or work to make or do, 

I think that is 

I don't even know what I want to do or how would I make a profit of any, as

I don't really have a story to share (I can talk about many but get to reality none!)

Or make something exceptional, 

There are surely things that makes me happy, and I fantasize to make of my own, but that does not mean that I will enjoy it or if I'll be good at it, 

But whatever I decide, 

I'll try my best and 

I surely need to get out of this receptionist "carreer" I've taken onto my life

Has been almost 5 years with this various jobs with the same title and I hate it 

I want something ideally remote, I'd love to make a living around art, 

I don't know what to do or where to start.

I'd like some help but idk where to search...