From some days to this I've been feeling useless. Like I could never do anything and I will end up homeless and starving again.
I am just-
So anxious lately and anxiousness keeps me from doing stuff. It paralizes me.
And when I take the pill anxiety is gone for some hours but the depression then kiks in harder and I is so difficult to get out of the bed..

I can't even answer messages.
Yesterday I had a panick attack I just kept under control by taing 1mg of alprazolam, I'm really scared of that running out for me because, is really expensive to go to a psychiatrist and the pills are also expensive...

Anyways, I haven't feel like myself since I got here, I haven't been myself, I don't have my motivation back, just a part that leads to nowhere land.

But anyways, without so much anxiety at least I can work when I get out of bed.