I'm finally out of the hell that is Venezuela

It feels good

Like I can do something for myself

Like I can progress and be soon in control of my life 

Like I can finally have a normal life and feel normal again

This family is very charming 

They make me anxious because of the amount of noise they do

I'll have to adjust to it but meanwhile I'm trying to keep me controlled by taking a pill when I feel like I need it 

I'm really worried about my friend

He has depression and is kind of a trigger for me 

And I'm not sure how to help him of even deal with him when he gets Moody 

I kind of let my mind ramble sometimes again and it worries me that I'll start thinking of killing myself again 

And I cannot let that happen

I'm not sure if my friends know the times I've tried to kill myself

Or how 

But I won't let it happen again

So far so good in this country

I soon will start to do some errands to be able to start working

I really need and want a work, of whatever 

I want to work as soon as possible

I've progressed a lot with my feelings and destroyed self from my last relationship

I will never forget or forgive him for what he did to me, I'm very resentful and I still hate him

I've recovered a lot of my confidence and I feel happier alone, comfortable and so

I won't be able to let anyone in for some time, but that's okay 

I love myself and I've learned a lot 

I've mourned and has been really hard 

But I'm getting better everyday 

Go to the psychologist helped me a lot 

I've learned a lot about detachment and how it is a good thing to have and be 

I wonder what can I get from life to now on 

I'm excited and happy to be here 

I'm happy and grateful to have such wonderful friends

Sometimes I still get the feeling like I need to escape, but will ease when it will be able to live alone or at least, with less people around

I still know that I love cats and don't want children for now 

I've made some nice friends and discovered that I like techno and drugs hahahahaha

Well

That's all for now :)