I feel so bad I don't want to do anything today, or ever.
I feel so bad I just want to stay in bed all day.

I'm a contradiction 'cose I need to be productive to feel good but still I don't want to do anything and I feel bad and Is a cycle.

I try not to feel bad about the way I am making money, like I really need it and doesn't change the fact that I'm in love with him and I'm so afraid sometimes that he will hate me for it, even when i know he won't I'm still a little paranoid about it. I don't want him feel bad tho.

Sometimes I want to stop existing, everything is so fucking difficult.