Creo que ya se que quiero comprarles a mis amigos de navidads, 

 David algo de star wars of course, I'm not sure what tho, 

I'll buy some clothing for Faby

Some shirt and march for Sebas

Something very goth for Sthef 

Something for Randy and Gabo maybe? 

Something 4 my mom dad and Adri, 

Something for Tsuri Arqui Yaso Ryuchi and Abra

I've a list of merch I'd like to buy David as well

Me he ecnotnrado recientemente con la insatisfacción conmigo misma, 

Debo trabajar y tratar de no maltratar a las personas que quiero y amo a mi alrededor por causas que son sólo mías, 

No puedo negar que me sienta un poco, no sola, pero me cuesta entender, procesar y llegar a la profundidad de las emociones de los lazos que trato de nutrir y no lo siento.

Idk if the thing is that I wanna be alone or that I'd just go on the pot of depression if so.

There's nothing wrong with you

I'm not feeling very well,

I'm not feeling social, nor affectionate, 

I've been feeling like I get mad or cry at least once a day for reasons that are completely avoidable, 

not feeling sexual, not desire, not even self 

not feeling like doing anything when I get home, 

nor when I am home.

I'm sick and tired of being ask everyday what are we gonna eat, 

I kinda wanna live in a rural area ? 

Maybe something outside a City to try it out...

Want a remotejob then 

Cuatro años pasan

Como si fuera poco

Todos los trajines y trabajos

Todo el sufrimiento y los cambios

Cuatro años pasan

Como si fuera poco 

Y veo en lo hipotético

Otro cauces de futuros imposibles

Y veo nunca en lo tangible

El haber sido lograr un sueño

A costa de otro

Cuatro años pasan

Como si fuera poco

Y los mios envejecen

Y el miedo eferbece 

De no poderlos volver a tocar

Apretujar y desbordar

Un amor

 i am tired of others 

I AM TIRED OF MYSELF

It does not matter how much I rest, 

Often it feels like I am always feeling bad, 

I am always feeling anxious somehow,

I am always in need to lay down,

Like I am not having enough sleep, 

I don't have much energy in general,

I get tired easily,

I feel guilty when I depend too much on others, 

I feel like a weight,

I don't like how I think,

I don't like how I look, eventho I look good even gorgeous, 

But I how I feel does not correlate with that reality, 

I am tired

of myself

overall

I feel like shit today

I am more of a shot than a person

I'm beyond uncomfortable

I don't like how I feel, I don't like how I look, 

I am late to work and still at the bus

I am anxious, I've my period and is uncomfortable

I wanna puke I wanna cry 

I might be a bit disregulated