I want to drug myself until I die

what would happen if I talk to someone about this
blog
thoughs
bad decisions I've made
my feelings
would believe me?
would understand?
I don't want to be this
or anything
I don't want to hurt anybody
but I want to die

no quiero existir
es mucho
demasiado
para mi 

quiero morirme
quier hacerme daño
quiero morirme